"Then the Lord opened the eyes of Balaam, and he saw the angel of the Lord standing in the way, with his drawn sword in his hand. And he bowed down and fell on his face." Num 22:31
This tells me two things. First, like Balaam, we can be pretty thick headed with God, pressing him in prayer even when we may know that what we are pursing for our own gain is not in line with his kingdom value. I remember tryingevery possible way to get around a set of circumstances set between me, and a positioning I was pursuing a few years ago. It was clear that I was not the right fit for the role, even to me. In pressing I came to a point in which my wife said to me; "Jeremey, let it go. This isn't good for you." Now, Balsam had a donkey straighten him out. So I'm grateful God saw fit to use my beautiful and intelegent wife to bring me to.my sences. God had another position that was the perfect fit waiting just around the "summer."
Secondly, God will allow us to stumble around and spin our wheels. Its not that he dosent tell us, its just that we tend not to listen. God allowed Balaam to go his own way... for a while. God is not in the business of controlling us, nor will he simply let his children run wild. Rather he lets us know his will and gives us freedom to chose obediance. And while his hand of discipline may feel heavy at times, it comes from a father who loves us. He lets us fail, but he will not abandon us.
Lord, help me today to listen to you, being sensitive to the movement of your kingdom and obedient to my role as your child.
In Jesus name,
